I have been through a lot in my life, and it has taught me that each day is one to be appreciated.
On the 4th of July I got in a very minor car accident, but because of the impact on my side it banged me around a bit.
I honestly walked out of the ER with just a lot of bruises one pretty big one on my leg.
I was told to stay off of my feet and rest, which I didn’t do, because I never listen to what I am supposed to do, and this time I payed the price.
In typical fashion, I had to take myself there, and was crying the whole way, scared I was bleeding internally.
Well it turns out that it was a Mass Hemotoma and that it was pretty serious.
Serious that put me in bed for a week, which was interesting because I was completely brought back to that time in my life when I was so sick from my Eating Disorder that all I could do was lie in bed.
I started to get really depressed. I felt useless to the world, to my company, to everything.
It also started to mess with my body image because I was full of bruises, and looked all puffy and swollen.
It started to mess with my eating patterns, because I didn’t have an appetite.
I started to lose my inspiration to breathe, to blog, to do anything.
I just lay in my bed feeling hopeless.
After about 3 days, I seriously slapped myself upside the head, because my head was the only thing that wasn’t bruised. My head was also the only thing acting like a dumbass.
I have not come this far in my life to lie in bed and feel sorry for myself.
Yes this was a really bad bruise gone wild, but it didn’t kill me.
I have people in my life who love me and care for me and I have too many people who look up to me and admire the work that I do for me to throw in the towel.
I know if Kobe or Bynum, or any other basketball player gets injured and can’t play it brings them down. It sucks.
However, I may be benched but I refuse to stay out of the game.
The thing is when you have been to hell, you know the next time you go, not to bring a winter jacket.
So I am all propped up on pillows with the window open, and I am back to blogging away.
I may be a girl who just got interrupted by bad luck, but that’s certainly not going to get me to shut up.