The other day I got really irritated with a friend because they were late to meet me for coffee. I kept sitting there tapping my high-heeled foot under the table, looking at my watch and thinking to myself that I had a blog I had to finish, dry cleaning to pick up, sushi to eat, [...]
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SURVIVING AN EATING DISORDER…..DAMAGED GOODS
I remember the day I checked out of a major hospital in New York. I had been there for a year under the care of a prominent and famous doctor who treats eating disorders. I had been re-feeding for almost 350 days, half of them with the help of a feeding tube. As these nurses, [...]
EATING DISORDER RECOVERY… MY BLOODTYPE IS B POSITIVE!!
I came home the other day in just one of the most horrid moods. I was cranky, depressed, irritable, and I just wanted to get in my car and drive far away from my life. Then in hit me why I was in such a funk. I had been surrounded by nothing but negative people [...]
EATING DISORDER RECOVERY…..LEAN ON ME
You are at the mall, and you just can’t help and not keep your eyes fixed at the woman walking towards you. She is alarmingly thin, and it is causing not only you to stare, but everyone else around you as well. Her bones are protruding through her thin sweater, and her legs resemble two [...]
EATING DISORDERS: THE GIRL WHO CRIED WOLF
Seeking treatment for an Eating Disorder is a very difficult decision, and for a lot of people it’s the first time they face their truth. It’s a challenge as this disease comes with many accessories. It drapes itself in lies, and secrets, deception and manipulation. Going into therapy requires you to be honest, and when you [...]
RECOVERING FROM ANOREXIA…LIVE AND LET GO.
One of my favorite songs by Paul McCartney is “Let it be”, it actually was inspired by a dream he had about his mother who died of cancer when he was a teenager. Paul was going through a rough patch with the Beatles at the time and her exact words to him in his dream where “it will [...]
TREATMENT FOR EATING DISORDERS…”I JUST CAME TO SAY HELLO.”
When people tell me after just a few weeks of being in treatment that they are completely better, and ready to go home and do it on their own, I shutter. They look at me smiling and say thanks for all the wonderful help, and now they are ready to jump back into their lives [...]
RECOVERING FROM AN EATING DISORDER….I MAY HAVE OLD ROOTS, BUT MY LEAVES ARE STILL GROWING.
I have come to the terms that as I get older there are just certain things I can’t do anymore. I realized this the other day when I tried to do a cartwheel and landed swiftly on my backside. I don’t know which hurt more, my ass or my ego. I also realized [...]
FAT Is Not A Four-Letter Word! Part I
I used to hate the word FAT – It was as vile to me as poison. It was what I have run from most of my entire life. I didn’t want to be it, I didn’t want to see it, I didn’t want to eat it. I would have probably rather been called the most disgraceful words on the planet rather then be called those three letters.
Now Showing – Attack of the Giant Menu
Now I know we were in New York, but there was no way a turkey sandwich cost 1.450 dollars. It took me a minute to realize that every single menu item had the number of calories in it posted smack next to it. Now, I have been in recovery for awhile, but at that very moment my eating disorder was tanding in front of me and had…